Winter is approaching

It is cold outside today...It isn't just my mood.
Generally I like grey days, which is exactly what this is, but not when I have to leave my warm apartment for no other reason than to work...don't get me wrong, I don't mind working, but I hate going to school, the cold hard studio floor, the overpriced uncomfortable chairs to do a project that I don't know how to execute no matter how much I 'understand' what to do, I don't know how to actually do it! It is this that frustrates me. I feel as if all the good things in my life are sliding farther and farther away from me- I’m grasping at the proverbial straws and coming up with nothing…I want my friends, all of them, I want my man, and my family… I’m just tired of being alone and on my own.