Completely Enamored....

Enamored
Smitten
Head-over-Heels
Endearing
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Well, Jeni said I must write, so I will write.
My life continues at warp speed and at times I am completely unsure what to make of it, only that I love it. Life isn't easy but right now, for me, it's wonderful. I know that it's hard, but it doesn't seem to matter. There is always so much to do, places to go, things to see that it's as if there won't be time to do it all. I don't much care to see all those other people right now, I mean they are there, but...
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It's only been two days but it feels like a lifetime
The moments seem to creep slowly by when I'm waiting and wishing them godspeed
I think a thought...remember a time
I bow my head in bashful remembrance and blush at the thought
I've never been like this before so giddy and excited
So I'll hold back a bit just to see how the cookie crumbles
and then we'll go from there

Walking on Air!

I feel weightness
Life is tilting, whirling spinning and I think that I'm winning!
Comfort, complete control...Life is utterly unexpected at times
Sneeking up and suprising us with greatness!
It all came so fast... I hope that it all lasts.

Sleepless Nights....

Today is Tuesday...No, wait! It’s Wednesday, and I’ve had approximately 2- 1/2 hours sleep in the past 2 days, but oddly enough I'm doing okay.
Well, if okay is getting incredibly shaky in the middle of the day and going home after my second class today, then I’m okay. You see, Tuesdays are my long days; I am at school from 9am-9pm. I basically have 3 back-to-back classes, starting with my 9-4pm studio, with an hour lunch break, back to class and when that one concludes at 4 o’clock I have a few minutes to get my belongings packed away and somehow make down that interminably long hallway in the AIADO Dept. at my school and be in my next class and ready to show my homework by 4:15pm. It’s a bit crazy, but that’s what I do.
After my Lab, which is more like a lecture/seminar type class with more homework than is necessary for a 1.5 credit class I dash off to my 6 o’clock, which runs ‘til 9pm. This is the class I missed today, I was incredibly lucky that my Lab class concluded early today and I got to take a moment to collect myself and talk a bit with a couple of friends, one of which was supposed to be in the same 6 o’clock class [He skipped too] I didn’t feel too bad about it, because I felt so bad. I had done fine pretty much the entire day, I made sure to bring good food with me to keep my body fueled, but I think that after the field visit for my studio, which took us to the basement of a historic Chicago building, and with all of the temperature and air quality changes I think that it just sent me over the edge, physically. I needed to get home, eat and get a little rest, which I did, but after only a couple of hours I was woken up by a phone call from my little sister asking about our summer travel plans and I couldn’t get back to sleep. I made some rice and ate while watching a movie.
To segue a little I need to comment on the movie, it was a dance movie. I love dance movies! They are my favorite, it doesn’t matter if it’s a musical from the 40’s or a contemporary dance drama, I love them all, and the one I watched tonight just made me want to dance, which is good. I need to do something physical that will help me relax and de-stress, so I’ve decided that until I leave for my summer trip(s) I’m going to take dance classes, starting with ballet and if I can get a partner, hopefully some salsa, or ballroom. I’m so excited, I’m going tomorrow to sign up. Hopefully I can get that and my passport photos done tomorrow. Well, since it’s currently 1:04am and I’ve not really slept, I think I’m going to do that and hope that I get everything done that I need to tomorrow.

Please Don't Call Me Sweetheart

I don’t mean that much to you
So just to see me through
Don’t say the things you do
Sweetheart
Darling
Dear

I can’t see through your eyes
But I see through your disguise
And if I meant that much to you, I’d let you know
So, please don’t call me sweetheart

I can hear it in your voice
I can see it in your face
I can read it in your eyes
I don’t mean that much to you so, until then…
Please don’t call me sweetheart

Breaking Ties and Tying New Ones

I’m close, so close. I’ve been away too long but I’m getting closer and closer. I have a renewed sense of direction, I knew what I wanted and where I need to be but it’s always the getting there. It is like seeing the destination you see from the mountaintop but without fully realizing the vastness of the valley between.
I’ve come to the realization of several things these past couple of months, and am quite excited of things to come, no matter how hard things may get, I’m ready! I think…No, I am.
I’m breaking ties, tying new ones and strengthening others, it’s a good life!
I am so thankful that I am where I am and not where I could be, and on my way to where I should be.